Alene-Writer

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There's a huge sadness weighing upon my heart By now it became familiar (Except for the increasing heaviness that takes me by surprise everytime) There is sad acceptance Giving up A bittersweet reality There is constant headache A lump in my throat And tears wavering on the edges Yet there is lightness despite it all I am sad I don't need people telling me what i already know And hate about myself So much it hurts Badly More than anyone deserves to hurt But i do And i am living with it Isn't this enough? Why isn't it enough? What do you want me to do? I can see the finish line But I'm holding back Walking slowly Should i make a run for it? And beat time? Would this be better somehow? I know that pain will disappear But I'm scared It's a scary thought Not to leave But to leave alone I don't want to leave alone With this loneliness that encompasses me Unloved as i am And sad So so sad.

Thoughts by Alene-Writer, literature

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Beyond Repair by Alene-Writer, literature

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Beyond Repair

Even after you've turned to dust floating around And bits of flesh that very much resemble solid rocks Devoid of spirit Broken like glass beyond repair Or leaves left to crumble and long since fallen to the ground, They keep on breaking you down... Even after you no longer smile And all you see is black and white Even after you grew old with bitterness And aching bones And silence as your only companion Even after they married you off to a sad loneliness And killed your unborn children And then stabbed you for good measure And then stole the blood you bled And forced you to drink it, They keep on breaking you down... I just wonder

No Home by Alene-Writer, literature

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No Home

It's devastating to have no place in the world. It's scary. It's lonely. It's also sad, when you think about it. A whole vast world, an infinite universe, and not a safe place for you to be in. It's quite depressing too. Your existence stands alone, and probably always will. Your right to love and be loved crashes in the face of all the hate in the world. You have no home. You never had. It's cruel.

Nostalgia by Alene-Writer, literature

Barely by Alene-Writer, literature

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Barely

I'm weak these days Barely Breathing through thick air And an old sadness Heavily rooted somewhere inside Always awake I dream during the day And at night I sleep without dreams Sometimes I feel like the world might stop for a while For me to catch a breath And catch on But when it doesn't I realise that I've stopped running long ago And that it doesn't matter Because I've missed it before Once And more than once I keep missing it every time And I will never not.

Disconnected by Alene-Writer, literature

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Disconnected

Disconnected Dissociated I can't leave and i can't stay. But i am staying, am i not? It's been years. All my life, really. Barely away from here but always, always away. Inside my head. In my life choices. Almost. (I can't stay here.) But when they question your choice (it is really mine though?) and your happiness, you can only lie and pretend. I'm not happy. I'm not. I don't want to be alone. And everything i did in my life led me to this. It's my fault, my doing. It's my mental state. It's my specific situation. It's not them. It's not them. I can't leave. Sadly. I have no place anywhere. I am physically held back. I am w

GHOST PEOPLE by Alene-Writer, literature

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GHOST PEOPLE

The absurdity of life came crushing back Hitting me hard How real unreality felt at the time How fragile The bubbles keeping me afloat bursted The threads snapped Untangling me from the fake simplicity And into an ocean of people and social and smiles and mentions and small hearts and colorful weird filters Splash Drown, they said And then it's all a mess from there And scrolling and scrolling and scrolling until my fingers ached and my neck stressed. Tick-tocks Time became real Unforgiving Drawing the black out of my eyebrows and head Into old age and forgetfulness Stories remained only for 24 hours As if they could tell a lifetime wo

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Deviant for 7 years

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“I have been bent and broken, but – I hope – into a better shape.”

― Charles Dickens

Welcome!
Please enjoy whatever words I babble on and write down. I often do that, and it’s pretty magical to me! I hope you would feel the same.

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The Shadow of the Wind.

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Alene-Writer

Jan 2, 2023

I missed this site. It seems like so much has changed yet it's stll the same?? Hope everyone is doing well :)

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Alene-Writer

Jun 24, 2019

On June 20, my poem "Mortuus" was given a DD and I am still in shock. It's like a dream I didn't know I carried come true. I've been on DeviantArt for 9 years (on a different account) and I never imagined something I've done would be featured among t...

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Alene-Writer

May 24, 2019

A quick "I love all of my people here and I'm sorry I haven't been here a lot lately and didn't reply to you. Days are hard. But again I love you all. Truly :') ❤️"